Well yesterday's stuff to get rid of became a top that was nice but would suit Jess better so although not out of the house still out of my wardrobe and into hers.

So today's thoughts have really been surrounding something that has been going on for a long time. Not going to explain fully to protect privacy but hopefully will still come across what is for me a very important thought.

So here goes, I've got a relationship not with family or friend but one that has to kept for a reason. maybe insert here someone you work with regularly (probably the best way to describe it ) you need this relationship to work but you really struggle with the person. you need to be assertive but you also need to make sure that however annoying you find this persons way of communication and actions that it would be a bad move to make it worse.

so for ages I have not liked the affect this person has on me and have spoken to people i love and respect to check out if it is something that I need to change to improve this. feedback has been mainly under the heading of ignore, don't worry, be assertive and tell them (not angrily) put boundaries in. No its not you been sensitive its someone stepping over a line. politely but firmly point it out.

so anyway today's 'now' moment came....I have been tempted to force it unnaturally on many occasions also very tempted to angrily say what I know has been needed to say.

The opening was there for me today to state what needed to be said with no offence taken put firmly in place my boundary and guess what. It was no problem for the other person and was understood it was my right to do this.

so thoughts for today..... is it because I am british?, working class and my upbringing makes it very difficult to deal with situations like this. why do I hesitate to politely stand up for myself when someone else has no problem being rude. then usually end up feeling stressed and annoyed or worse letting it build up till it ends in anger.

Why do I worry so much about what someone who I actually am not impressed with the way they say and do things will think if I stand up for myself

Ah well got there in the end and the perfect moment was given so it could be said in a non point scoring way :)